Back into the.. idfk just back, just back...

Uh, yeah i'm back. Wow such a long time ago I didn't write anything here...
So many things happened since the last time I wrote, where to start? hum, well let's start for the last to the new (?
How I said I started college this year, yeah... I don't really know how I am doing this, because I just take one subjet (is that how you call?) wherever.) and I'm doing in the same time my last year of high school, yeah. i mean, I finish high school last year but i'm on a technological high school and we have one more year than others normal and currents high shcool's. Yeah that suck, sometimes, there are other days that I really enjoy doing this one more last year (because it was optionally) but there are others that I don't because college, college takes all my free time, even the time that i spend to go to school, i didn't thought it was going to be so definitely not easy.
I mean, college is like so different from high school, i know is obviously, but i really miss doing that kind of stuff that i use to think it was very difficult in high school... then i just see what i'm doing or what i'm going to do in my future career and splashhhh, what the hell i'm doing here? that my friends, is my everyday question.
I think that i really like this career but i'm not sure at all, if somebody ask me another thing that would i like to study i'm pretty sure that i would say anything, i don't feel like i have another options, i dont even feel if i really want to do this, i mean i would like to but i'm not sure if could do it. 
As i always say, i just want to travel... but i need money for that, and money includes have a job, and job includes study, because i don't want to work on something that i don't like so yeah, study then... 
wherever, wow I wrote so much about this.

Okay, moving on, so many things happen since this year started.. yeah i know there isn't any difference between this year and the last one but i like to think that yeah. i know that is just a number, but is a number which people used to organize their lifes (?) is like a fresh start, ''i will change this when the number changes'', yeah kind of weird and silly things that we (humans) do.. but if that make you feel good then just believe it..

Going for the good news, i've got a new pet! (yayy!). Her name is Luna, to be honest is my brother's pet, she is a dog (?) (Q=how do u say dog in femenine?) we don't get along, she is like the little baby of my brother, hugh she is very hateful when my brother comes around, she is jealous, think she is like a baby (when she is NOT), and hateful oh i said that, but i love her despite everything because she is an animal so yeah...
Going to the bad ones, there was a death in our family, a person who we care so much. Maybe I didn't spend so many time with him but he was important to me, and I really miss him.
I forgot to say that I'm eighteen now, yay! (?) in my country you're big when you're 18 years old, cool isn't? but i'm not sure if really want to grow up.
Hum well I don't know what else say ? 

I should be studying right now but you know, things...

Hope write back soon, see ya. :)
Lo escribo en ingles porque se me canta las pelotas, chau. 

And here we are  January 27th, 2014, my last week of holidays... yeah i start college next week i don't know what the fuck do or how to feeling about it, i'm scared (?) let's see how things goes
                                                                                                                              bye, bye
                                                                                                                                        xxxxx

2013

you've been worst year ever, end bitch end.

That part...

I'm in that part of life where you don't have any fucking idea about what to do with your life, that part where you have everything to chose but you don't know exactly what you want. That part where you feel like a lost baby in the middle of the  whole world, alone, afraid of everything..
I just want to cry and cry because i don't know what the fuck do on my life, i think i need help but i know that it's me who have to decide this, just me, no one else because it's my life, it's me who is gonna live all these things, just me. 
I want to be like taylor swift in 22 video, sometimes i want to get married an old rich man and do nothing for the rest of my life. But then i remember that i want to be happy and live the fucking life, and then i go back into the unknowledge about what to do with my life...
Damn life, why the hell should we grow up? and why the fuck is life so complicated? why couldn't be life like our dreams, why so bitch?  
Maybe i'm wrong, maybe not all people go through this, maybe i'm the one who doesn't know what do, i don't know but i hope one day i see this post and i wish i be happy doing the things that i really love, i see my self in the future, travelling around the world, being a profesional photographer, working in a job that i really like, fallen in love with someone who i really love (maybe have childrens, buy our first house, have our first pet, you know all those things...) after all nothing out of the ordinary (?
Next year i'm going to be 18 (i will be legal!) i know i'm too young but i don't want to waste my life, not anymore. I have to find a job and start university, at least find what i really want to study.. 
Ok, i'm leaving. just needed to say that.
Let's make things happen! Adiós. 

changing is more difficult than they say it will be.

I wanna change.

Guess who's back...

 Volvi y en forma de.. na mentira, sigo igual. 
Tuve problemas de conexión, si es que a alguien le interesa y me lee (?), pasaron 9 meses desde que no entraba al blog. Pasaron muchas cosas en mi vida en estos 9 meses, creo que mientras estoy escribiendo esto me estoy dando cuenta de las cosas que pasaron.
La mayoría de las cosas siguen igual, tal vez el hecho que yo haya vivido nuevas experiencias, por llamarlo de alguna manera, hicieron que empiece a ver las cosas de una distinta manera a la cual solía hacerlo antes.
No creo que ya estamos en septiembre y que faltan 3 meses para que empiecen las vacaciones, y también, para que termine la escuela, este es mi ultimo año, aunque hago 1 más de especialización pero no es lo mismo. Nunca en mi vida me vi buscando universidades y carreras, si me preguntaban lo quería ser o hacer cuando era chica casi siempre respondía: 'voy a ser una ballerina' o 'voy a viajar por el mundo', lo de ballerina sigue siendo un sueño que ya se que por más que quiera me va costar mucho ya que no tengo el cuerpo ni el físico que estas tienen :( ( y porque tendría que haber empezado de los 6 años u.u ) y 'viajar por el  mundo' siguen siendo mi sueño, que lo voy a cumplir. Pero para esto necesito plata, dinero, money, cash, guita (o como quieran llamarlo) por ende, necesito un buen trabajo, lo cual me lleva a precisar de un titulo para poder conseguir este, y para esto necesito estudiar. -_-
Lo peor de todo es que para vivir en este mundo necesito plata, por que aunque Los Beatles digan que todo lo que necesitamos es amor, la plata es lo que maneja el mundo y lamentablemente por lo que las personas viven.
Y como soy tan jodidamente inconformista en cuestiones personales, aunque nunca lo diga, quiero un buen trabajo, quiero hacer algo que me guste realmente, pero no quiero ser uno de esos más que hacen lo mismo... aunque todavía no se lo quiero estudiar.
En otras palabras, no se que es lo que quiero ser o hacer realmente, lo único que se es que quiero viajar por el mundo. Conocer nueva gente, nuevas culturas, nuevos lugares, vivir nuevas experiencias, aventuras, etc. Y estoy segura que algún día lo voy a hacer.
Me despido, son las 12 menos 20 y mañana tengo 2 pruebas :|

PS: Vivan para sus sueños. la vida es una sola, hay que vivirla, por que para eso esta o no?

Este post va dedicado para mi perro, si para mi perro, Nano que hace casi 9 meses que ya no esta con migo, siempre te voy a amar mejor amigo.

ADIOS 2012!
Como todos los años pido 3 deseos, que por lo habitual no suelen
cumplirse pero a pesar de todo voy a seguir conservando la esperanza, 
para este 2013 solo voy a pedir 1 deseo: Ser Felíz.
Es todo lo que pido, espero que este sea un buen año de verdad
y que algunas cosas cambien..
2013 here we go.

                                        

Dreams are a part of all of us, if we don't dream, we don't live.
sometimes we dream about the things that all we want to happen
or do, but it not always come true, we have to make them true.
it's not always easy but what the fuck, life's just one, don't
waste your life, enjoy it and good life!. 
and never forget to dream.

MAGIC NEVER ENDS. ϟ

Happy 16th birthday to me. (?

Adiós 15 años. Te espere tanto que te pasaste volando, hoy empiezo otro año mas. se supone que debería estar feliz? bueno supongo que lo estoy, pero por otro lado estoy triste. si, triste, por que siento que los años siguen pasando y yo sigo igual que siempre, todo lo que siempre soñé.. nada paso. (ya se que apenas tengo 16(?) pero hay cosas que quiero que se cumplan a cierta edad.)
Espero que este nuevo año de vida, sea mucho mejor que los demás. no quiero irme de este mundo sin realizar al menos 3 de los tantos sueños que tengo. no se por que estoy diciendo esto y estoy segura que nadie lo va leer pero bueno nada, quería descargarme ajshdkasd. (?)
vamos que todavía soy joven! me queda mucho por vivir. 
por si alguien, de casualidad lee esto, solo quiero decirles que disfruten la vida, por que es una sola. que no importe lo que los 'demás' digan, es TU vida no la de los 'demás'. otro consejo : (~) 
en fin.. Bienvenidos 16 años! :)

                                     Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times,
                                     If one only remembers to turn on the light.